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God kept me, He held me together

Don’t be so quick to say someone doesn’t understand what you’re going through. You never know what a person has gone through just by looking at them. People suffer in silence or they find ways to cope with their adversities. Never assume you know the whole story about anyone just because of what you see in this moment.

While standing in my kitchen washing dishes, and listening to gospel music, a song came on (Zacardi Cortez “God held me together) which reminded me of how the Lord has kept me. I began to recall things I haven’t thought about in years, all while knowing how intentional I believe God has been in keeping me for this moment in life, to be an encouragement, spiritual support, voice of reason or simply a listening ear for everyone He would send my way.

Just so you understand some of what i’ve overcome, my first real memory of how God has kept me from hurt, pain and even death was God delivering me from sexual abuse when I was just eight or nine years old, then a memory of God keeping me from being  abducted on my way home from school one day, my dad showed up just as the guys had blocked me in and were getting out of their car.  I remember him running with all his might (he was a big man).  I also remembered almost being shot by a stray bullet while my siblings and I played on the street (an NYPD car chase).   One of the most painful memories was when my dad who I know loved me from the depths of his heart had a nervous breakdown and my baby brother and I had to literally run for our lives, because it seemed that my fathers intention was to kill his family and then himself! My next memory was in my youthful stupidity, I tried recreational drugs (weed) and apparently my boyfriend at the time laced it with something extra.  To this day I have no memory of that night (crazy right). I also experienced issues with depression early in my marriage while my husband was deployed oversees in the Navy. It was to the point that I contemplated taking my life and my baby girls who was in the car with me at the time. I was so lonely and angry that I was in the situation I was in but it was only in that moment I gave into the voices that told me to pull in front of a dump truck to end my pain and disappointment.  It was that moment I looked over into my daughters sweet little eyes that I knew I had to live. God had a call on her and the baby boy I would have a few years later. God held me together for my family and so many others. Be encouraged, whatever you are going through is only for a season, It won’t last always.
Psalm 30:5 Weeping may endure for a night but joy will come in the morning

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Yes, It’s Christmas, and Yes, I know it hurts

It’s always hard to be without a loved one, but in my opinion, Christmas time is the worse time of all to be without them. This is the time of year that I lost my mother to a long illness. During that time, I felt so alone, but I was too busy caring for my mom to give into my feelings. My military husband was stationed in another state, as were both of my military children. I spent most of my time at doctors appointments or hospitals. I remember before my moms last surgery, decorating her hospital room because she loved Christmas, and I would have done anything to make her happy.

Yes, I still fight my sadness almost 8 years later, because I still miss her so much, but I have learned now, to be sad for a moment and “let it go”. I came to realize that my sadness never accomplished much, but to make me even more miserable. I now concentrate on the good, like my moms laughter, it was infectious, and her touch, which was so tender and loving. She had the most giving heart, her love for her family was unsurpassed, but most of all, she loved The Lord and she was looking forward to being with Him in Glory, and no longer suffering in pain.

I know it’s hard, but start by remembering the good times. Find things you are thankful for, look at old pictures, remember things you laughed about together, and allow healing to take place within.

I am so thankful for my mother, and all the good she instilled in me, but most of all, I am thankful for my faith in God and how He has given me the strength to find joy at Christmas.

Have Yourself A Merry Christmas!

Its A Fight, Again

Have you ever said, “Why me Lord”.  I have!  But I have also come to realize,  if God allows a situation to take place in my life, He already knows that I can and I will get through it.  

I said all that to say this, I am asking you to stand with me in prayer for a young family I know and love, who has gone through soooo much in the last couple of years.  Elise and Casey were blessed to be pregnant with twins and everything seemed to be going well with the pregnancy until Elise went into early labor and was hospitalized for the duration of the pregnancy.  Despite being put on total bed rest, she delivered the babies before they were fully developed.  The twins were not expected to survive, BUT GOD had other plans. The babies struggled for many months, through multiple complications. Finally, it seemed as if they were going to be fine until the news came that their baby boy, Jaxon had developed cancer in one eye. Well, Praise God! After treatment Jaxon was healed of cancer completely, he did not lose his eye, and his vision was just fine!. The twins are about to celebrate their third birthday!!! And now comes the news that Elise has been diagnosed with breast cancer after all their family has had to endure with their babies!! Because God has done great, marvelous, and miraculous things for them and their family, we are believing Him to show His mercy and His miraculous power once more in Elise and Casey’s lives.  
We believe in the power of prayer, so please join us in calling Elise and Casey’s names during your prayer time. Ask God to heal her, to keep her strong in her body as she fights this battle, to bind them closer together in love, patience, and understanding, to keep their marriage strong through this next chapter in their lives, and to keep their children happy and healthy as He allows His power to be revealed to many through Elise, Casey and their families testimony.

image Her shirt says “fight“, and that she will!

  If God allows a situation to take place in our lives, it is because He knows that we are able to bear it, and that we will get through it with Him as our strength and power.  They are the picture of love, faith, strength and confidence in God through adversity.

 

To Everything, There is A Season

The bible tells us, there is a time and a season for everything in our lives, (Ecclesiastes 3:1)

So many people are under an extreme amount of pressure these days, experiencing depression and anxiety and not quite understanding what is going on with them. I feel it is important to be open about the fact that, while dealing with my precious mothers sickness, shortly after her death, I had a nervous breakdown! That happened because I was so overwhelmed and depressed, but mostly because, I didn’t talk about what was going on within me. I over thought every decision I made about her medical care, the surgeries, even agreeing to let her no longer be treated with dialysis. She just wanted to live out the rest of her days in peace, and I let her.

If you are experiencing the pain of sickness, sadness, anxiety depression or loss, it may not seem like it right now, but your pain is only temporary. You have to fight to get better. You may be crying, but your tears will soon dry. You will feel happiness again, you will smile again. “Weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning” (Psalms 30:5).

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It’s Only A Test

With all that my husband and I have been through in our lives together, we have come to understand how life can change so quickly. Someone opened their eyes to life changed forever this morning. Tragedy struck without a moments notice, sickness, disease, death, even anxiety and depression. There’s nothing we can do about what happens to us but, we can prepare ourselves to get through anything that comes our way. “I can do all things, With Christ who strengthens me”, (Philippians 4:13). We are warned that life is full of troubles but God will help us to overcome them all, (Job 14:1), and because we are warned, we should be equipping ourselves with the word of God, in order to overcome anything that comes our way, (1 Peter 1:13, Luke 12:35).

“If you abide in me , and My Word abide in you, you can ask what you want and it shall be given to you” (John 15:7)

Can You Handle It?

This was probably the only Christmas in my life, I can recall being sick. My daughter and her family came home on Christmas day, but my son-in-law was sick as well. It made me think, as I invariably do when I’m sick, “what must the chronically ill feel”, especially small children, when sickness and suffering is a daily reality. My heart sincerely goes out to anyone who feels badly everyday and they can’t get better.

Let’s all learn to be thankful for our good days, and the smooth times in life, for we will have sick days, and tough times will come, but know this, “When the righteous call for help, the Lord hears, and rescues them from all their troubles” (Psalm 34:17). The bible warns that we will experience troubles in life “but the Lord will deliver us out of them all” (Palms 34:19). Knowing God’s word concerning troubles and bad times, I can handle a bad cold, or a few problems here and there.